She'll be 4

im a little overwhelmed tonight thinking that before this little boy gets here my baby girl will be four years old. i remember doin all of this with her. i was so excited and a little scared when i found out i was pregnant with her at 18 years old. when i found out she was girl even though secretly wanting a boy i was more excited then i thought i would be. i'd get to have this little girl to dress up and do her hair (which she hates lol) i cant believe she is almost four and going to be a big sister. i was thinking of how sad i was at the age gap betweent the two of them 4 years. but now im thinking i wouldnt change it for the world. i had four amazing years with most amazing little girl in the world (and the tears start). for the longest time i didnt want to have anymore children because first of all 4 miscarriages were hard and also i couldnt emagine loving another child even remotely close to as much as i love that that little girl. but seeing how excited she is about being a big sister and seeing how much she loves her little brother already im starting to think that its all going to be ok. she wants him and she wants him now! she told me tonight that she just wants to kiss him. when she leaves the house she kisses me and then the belly and says bye baby brudder i'll miss you. its amazing i love them both so much i am truely blessed for these two little miracles god has given me. not to mention their father. any who i cant belive my baby girl is going to be four in 1month and 10days. time sure does fly when your having fun. she'll be starting school when we get back to fort campbell and i dont really know how im going to deal with that, even though ill have a new born i still love being able to hang out with her all day. wew im so not ready for my baby to be a big girl! i love you savanna alizabeth.